I see you very clearly said the Mistress
I know it’s difficult for you pretending to have it all together and dealing with life’s expectations isn’t it? You are not alone it’s the human condition really…… for example look at Christmas we’re expected to buy a lot of shit we can’t afford for people we don’t even like out of tradition. I find it ironic that one of our most cherished holidays is based on a Roman holiday called Saturnalia. Saturnalia was a week long celebration between December 17th and 25th where all kinds of sexual and moral debauchery were permitted. So now instead of orgies, feasts and possible human sacrifice we just have a consumerism cluster fuck; however slight at least we’re improving. My point is outside expectations can be somewhat meaningless and things are not always what they seem. Just like you feel you’re expected to have it all together in a typical masculine way….when inside all you really want is to let go, surrender and please your Mistress. So how do I know this about you?
A Mistress’s Intuition
I had an interesting discussion with someone today actually “How do you know a guy is submissive?” Well….. I can feel it. It’s difficult to quantify it in words because language fails in communicating experiential knowing. There always seems to be this adorable shyness that goes with submissive guys that I love so much. Some of you hide in arrogance and false confidence….rest assured any Domme worth her salt will not be impressed by false bravado. When a guy acts like that around Me I find it repulsive. Won’t it be nice to throw off those shackles for a brief instant and be able to breathe in submission? When you are ready I’ll be here waiting for you :).
Most if not all the mistresses know I’m submissive. They have said I’m to cute, nice sweet and adorable to be mean. Ms Olivia took me shopping with her I protested at first but she said it would be fun to do something together and I went with her. What I didn’t know is we went to Victoria’s Secret. She took my hand as I was nervous and sprayed me in perfume, put shimmer blush, lotion and lipstick on me. I was stunned but it happened so fast I wasn’t ready but right then she knew I was submissive as I tried to protest but she just kissed me and giggled saying you smell so pretty and look so cute and adorable. And she saw bludge in my pants. She then grabbed bras and panties and made me strip in dressing room and had me put then on:( I was so weak when she had me put then on. I had tears and tried to protest but she said my cock disagrees with me and I was in make, smelling girlish and had lipstick on how can you go back to being guy wearing guy clothes. We then went shopping for dresses and she had me hold over 20 dresses. She then had me wear size 6 sheath dress with pumps. She said of I don’t cum I can take off dress/bra/panty/makeup/lipstick. But after she kept kissing me I was covered in lipstick and made mess. She said buy cumming that meant I was weak feminine and submissive:( as result she threw away all my boy clothes and I only wear dresses/girls tops/sweaters/yoga pants/pumps and ankle boots. She also said she is going to tell all the mistresses I’m your submissive girlie boy toy to keep me dressed as women.
Jenna,
Your blog posts continue to amaze. I have always felt like there were some, not all but some, women who just seemed to “know”……in one way or another. You grow up sort of trying to “be a man” or “act a man” but some ladies see through it. I think some do not see it, some do see it but choose to leave it be and a few others choose to “use it” (and maybe you). I do not understand the
power of it. I used to think some D/s terms were “over the top” but there is a lot of truth even in some “extreme” concepts I think. I think I have only known a few women who truly understood the power they had and how far it can go AND that it is not really a “mind thing” but it can be a need and a truth in a man.
Jenna,
In my experience (granted it may be limited) with dominant women – a woman will sometimes toss out some sort of “test” (is all I can think to call it). This often comes unexpected or at least I find it that way and sort of catches you “off guard”. I think it is often more “subtle” and not especially “hard core”. For example a woman using the term “sweetie” or “sweetheart” when she is speaking to you (and not in the “equal partner style” but more in the “you are a little kid style”). Another “style” I have seen if a woman asks you to get something for her BUT does not
really “ask” but might say something along the lines of “I need you do do something for me” (and then there is a get my keys or my purse or whatever) – this is one thing if you have a relationship but if it is more just a woman who knows you she sort of “breaks boundaries” and “tests” your response. I think it is the same if a woman comments on your manhood sort of “indirectly” – she “tests” to see if you argue or “fight back”. I think if you are submissive it just feels more natural not to.
LOL, glad you enjoyed jim! I think it actually is a mind thing………everything is mind.
Thank you for the thoughtful comments Peter 🙂
hmmm, ok, but I think a lot of it still resides in the body. I think our bodies “remember” certain experiences and want or better yet – need, to replicate them.
And what is “it” that remembers? 🙂
“It” is not “just” the penis. It is of course that too but I think it is the entire body.
that recalls. That is one of the “things” about the experience of a dominant woman. I think.
She brings up the memory, maybe a distant one and maybe one that defies words or even intellect but she brings it up in you – the memory of something you once had and in fact lent itself to your survival. So, now, you need it. It is a need. Very deep and very in the body beyond the mind.
The cells carry memory too. I see your point :).
Mistress Jenna, i’m sure that it will come as no surprise to You that young women tend to treat me like a boy. They must sense something about me, Mistress Jenna, something that You know all about, Mistress.
I do know all about it scottie 😉 or the lack of *it* hahaha!
*blush*
😛